4:59 a.m.

i need to get this 'down on paper' before i forget anything.

all night long, i had vivid Mom dreams. they woke me up just now. most of the time, we were talking on the phone. it was weird, though, because we sort of moved between talking on the phone & in person.

i would begin a sentence on the phone, only to end it in her arms. unless talking to her simply made me feel like her arms were wrapped around me? i don't know, it was a weird dream-state.

she was sitting on the couch in what i think was her living room, with the couch against that mirrored wall... er, what used to be the mirrored wall? opposite the window? i never really look around in there (sorry, kimmy).

there was a couch there and mom sat against the left arm.

one thing mom said in my dream (this was 'in person', not 'on the phone') was "i am so glad we're close like we used to be."

she also said something about aaron rolling a car. i asked if anyone had been hurt and she said, "ya know...not reeeaaally."

i think this is mom's revenge. so many mornings when i would call her at the buttcrack of dawn and she would answer the phone.

mom: i hate you.
me: i love you!! heeeeeeeee.

now, she has ME up at 10 til 5. VERY FUNNY, MOM!

okay, so the following exchange really did happen. i just think it is fitting now because i want it to be... mom & i talked about this on may 15. it was my morning break...

me: i will miss our conversations.
mom: we will still talk, just on a different phone service.
me: that's stupid, mom.

and then we both laughed.